![]() I often wonder what would happen if i was to grind a knife through somones neck and feel it scrape the bone and and watch the life leave there inferior eyes as they gurgle blood. I dont know if this pertains to this convorsation but i have constant urges and "dark things" pulling me and making me want to stab and slice people open and im almost ashamed of it but also intrigued. Not personally of course, but, to those who I deem evil. Will I one day give in to the urges? If I do, and I can control it, I will only do it towards those who I see fit to die. Who knows? Will my former therapist get an interview in the newspaper? That would actually be fun. Will the blood pour out of him/her like water? Will it splatter across the room? Will I have to use a lot of force to shove it all the way in? If I pull out the knife, will the blood gash out of her/him like in the movies? Will she scream?Īll I know is that IF I do it, unprovoked, I will have one hell of a time explaining it to the police, my family, probably even the media. Or am I thinking of some other thing?įor me it's more like curiosity. If I end up in a courtroom at least I can plea the "insanity"-plea. I'm more curious than afraid that one day, I'll lose my temper and hurt someone. I have lost my temper and destroyed things I shouldn't. I've had those images with my friends, people I don't know, even my own mother. But, I keep having images in my head where I step closer and jab and the persons throat. I'm fully in control of my emotions and body. But, I feel the need, the force and thought that pulls me and is pushing me closer to the step where I actually do it. I'm curious, but, I know the hell that awaits me if I do it. I'm holding a fork or a knife or something sharp, and all I want to do is shove it in the throat of the person next to me. It's hard to tell what is going on there, but here is a reader's description of what it feels like to self-professedly have bloodlust:īlood cravings or the craving of wanting to hurt someone is weird. The difficult thing about it is you can never really tell who it will be: you can have some creepy co-worker who turns out to be fine, and another charming one who one day comes to work with a small arsenal. ![]() In my experience, blood lust is very rare even in the sociopath community (and of course not exclusive to sociopaths).
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